October 7, 2008

~Story for Jeremiah Chai~

a week has passed by without a phone call, facebook message, or any sign that you were still alive.

many phone calls were coming from tulsa, but no frequencies were allowing the call to be returned.

i knew what was happening when the words "i have something to tell you" came from your lips.

"it's been official for a week" says the man as his cutting words rip the girl’s heart into 1,000 pieces.

"i'm happy for you" were her exact words, after the news was broken, but she knew she had to hold back tears.

his side of the conversation continued with a polite, "i didn't want to keep anything from you", and a "have you been out dating lately?"

all she could think to say was that she had a "date" that evening, and it was awful.
laughter seemed to fill the conversation on both ends of the call. "you must know the bad to know and have the good" was his reply, and there was a silent concur as she nodded her head.

the conversation thus ended with a gentle "good night", but the tears in her eyes were just beginning.

Although I Knew We Weren't Official I Would Have Hoped We… You… Could Have Held Out A Little Longer. Two Months!!! Everything Between Us Was So Good The First Month Of School. For 9 Weeks, Well At Least 7-8 Of Those Weeks, Everything Was Wonderful. We Could Talk About Everything, Without Hold Back. Nothing Was Awkward, And Smiles Were On Both Our Faces, But Then That Dreadful Day For Jenny Thompson Arrived During The Week Of September 22ND Or 29TH, 2008.

There Were 2 Weeks Of With No Line Of Communication: No Phone Call And No Facebook Message. I Knew Something Had To Be Wrong, Or Something Happened Because I Saw Pictures On His Facebook Of Him And A Girl, But I Didn't Want To Jump To Any Conclusions.

I Knew We Weren't Official, But I Thought There Was More Than Mileage Between Us. I Thought There Was Something To Hold On To. Maybe I Was Wrong.

If He Brings Her Home For Christmas, I Don't Know What I'll Do.

Maybe She Is Better For You Than I Am... And Of Course I Am Only 18, What Should I Know... Right? I'm Happy For You. I'm Glad That You Are Happy. I Am Extremely Happy That You Have Found Someone Up There In Utah That You Can Confide In And Be Close To. I'm Happy And Excited That You Two Are Together And That You Can Grow Closer To One Another… 

I Just Hope We Are Still Friends!

I Think It Just Clicked. The Reason You Called Me Back Tonight Instead Of The 3 Other Nights Is Because You Knew I Was Happy And That I Had Something That I Could Hold Onto That Was Happy. Maybe You Didn't Want To Tell Me Or Even Talk To Me Earlier Because You Didn't Want To Hurt Me. Well, You Sort Of Got Your Goal.

I Am Hurt That You Are There And I Am Here, I Am Hurt That You Didn't Call Me Back, I'm Hurt That You Didn't Tell Me Sooner, But All In All I Am Happy That You Told Me Now Instead Of Later. I’m Glad You Didn’t Want To Lead Me On, Which I Appreciate Immensely! Your Overall Goal Was Accomplished, Even Though I Am Still Hurt. I Was Only Hoping That We Could Have Been More, Sooner Than Later.

I Had A Great Time While You Were Here And I Am Grateful For You And The Wonderful Evenings We Spent Together. I Am Grateful That I Met You And That We Were So Great Together. I Am Grateful That I Have Had This Experience That I Can Grow From It, And Become Better. You Have Made Me Realize That There Is Someone Out There For Me. It May Not Be You, But There Is Someone. You Were/Are A Great Contender For A Marriage Partner, But You've Lost Your Battle For My Heart. (Actually You Gave Up- But In A Way So Did I)

Although You Said You Hope We Could Keep This Going, I Kept Up My Part Of The Deal... You Dropped You Part. I Can’t Blame You Or Myself For That, It Just Happened, And You Have Found Better. I'm Happy For You And I Hope We Can Still Talk As Friends. I Enjoyed Getting To Know You, And That Week Was Amazing. I Will Never Forget It. Thank You For A Wonderful Time.

-Jenny Thompson